Lani Gonzalez- Rewriting The Subconscious: Science Meets Spirit

Jenn Ohlinger (0:03)

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Welcome back to Empowered Ease. I'm your host, Jenn Ohlinger. And this is a space where we challenge the status quo in women's health and explore mind, body, and soul approaches so that you can create your own path that truly works for you. Today, I'm so honored to welcome a guest whose story and work embody that mission so beautifully. Lani Gonzalez is an attorney turned healer. She's a hypnotherapist, a Reiki master. She helps women heal the past, reprogram their subconscious, and break free from self-doubt so they can rise into clarity, confidence, and purpose. For years, Lani lived a life that looked perfect on paper. She was a successful lawyer and a partner in her firm, but underneath there was a deep calling to serve in a different way. Answering that call meant walking away from the courtroom and into the unknown. That journey took her across more than 40 countries, learning from shamans, gurus, and healers, while also diving into neuroscience and the subconscious of the mind. She now weaves together hypnotherapy, neuroscience, and ancient wisdom traditions to help women rewrite the stories they were handed and create lives they truly love. Her work is rooted not just in study but in lived experience, including healing from profound childhood trauma and transforming achievement as proof of worth into a life grounded in true wholeness, purpose, and inner power. So today we're going to talk about what it really looks like to heal at a subconscious level, how ancient practices and modern science can work together, and how you can begin to reclaim your own clarity, confidence, and purpose in your health and your life. So, welcome Lani, I am so glad you are here.

Lani Gonzalez (2:57)

Hey.

Jenn Ohlinger (2:59)

Yay, well Lani, how are you doing today?

Lani Gonzalez (3:02)

I am doing well, how are you?

Jenn Ohlinger (3:05)

I am great. Let's just kind of jump right in. I'm so excited to talk to you. Can you tell me kind of about the moment when you realized that you needed a shift, that the life you were living, like you said, on paper that looks so perfect, wasn't working for you anymore and wasn't really aligned? Can you tell me a little bit more about that moment?

Lani Gonzalez (3:24)

Oh, I don't know if it was one singular moment. Maybe it's a combination of many, where I just started to realize that I wasn't really filled. I wasn't really full. So I was doing all the things I was supposed to do, right? You become successful, you look good on paper, you have a couple titles behind your name, and that is so fleeting, right? That makes you feel good for just a little bit. But when I looked at my life in the long term, I said, am I truly happy? I mean, perhaps there was one singular moment that I can think of, but it didn't really lead to the shift in me shifting careers. It just led to the realization that I fucked up some way. And that was being a lawyer, started practicing at the age of 23 years old. And I gave my everything to do it. And especially in a male dominated industry, there was so much involved with that. And the level of dedication to rise to the top of that was immense. And I suffered physically. I had meningitis three times. I've had sepsis twice. And there was no explanation for it. It was just my immune system was compromised with no explanation. The explanation now is I was burnt out and I wasn't giving my body the love and care and I had trauma stored within my body. That takes a tremendous amount of energy, but that's a different story.

But what I realized is the second time I had meningitis, I was in bed and the doctor said to me, hey, you should really call your parents. I was like, no, they're good. What can they do? They're in Virginia. I was in Florida. No need to call them. And they were like, hey, we're not sure what's going to happen here. And I think you should talk to your parents. And what they were trying to signal to me is, you're not doing so well. I was in and out of consciousness. I was not okay. And they had some serious concerns about the outcome of whether I would leave that hospital. And I remember laying in that bed by myself. I did not have people around me that loved and cared about me. And yes, there were people in my life who did, but was there anyone at my side when a doctor was hinting that this could potentially be my deathbed? There was not. And I stopped and I looked at my life and went, what did I do wrong? Why am I in this bed by myself without someone to be there beside me? And I realized that I had completely prioritized the wrong things. And I do remember in that state of delirium, meningitis. Basically, what happens is the stuff around your brain swells, and you start thinking a little bit funny, and you can't regulate your body temperature. It's miserable. And I remember when I was in and out of consciousness, and I had this dream, if you would say, and I was at a door, and I knew what that door was. It was that door to the other side. And I remember this being being there, ushering me into this door, to the next place to end my life.