INTERVIEW: Nix Adams

SPEAKER_1 (0:00)

Let's go. The Flava Breakfast Podcast.

Azura (0:03)

Flava old school hip hop and R&B, we are so, so, so lucky to be joined by this special guest today.

SPEAKER_1 (0:09)

Yeah, boys.

Azura (0:10)

Because there is a book in my hand. Look, listen to this.

Yeah, that's some audio stuff for you right there. This is Nix Adams, Nothing To Lose, a brand new book. And I mean, you may know her from social media, you may know her from the funny videos, the skits, winning Celebrity Treasure Island 2026, but now, it's your life on pages, Nix. Welcome to Flava.

Nix Adams (0:34)

Yay, thank you so much for having me.

Charlie (0:37)

Man, you got a book.

I mean, you're looking at this, and it probably hasn't really hit you, but you're looking at your life, but Azura has said this. We know you're on social media, and bro, you're one of the most crack up people here in Aotearoa. But to see yourself up on a bookshelf, has it really sunk into you?

Nix Adams (0:54)

Nah, no way.

I haven't walked in to see it on a bookshelf yet. I don't know, I'm too scared.

SPEAKER_5 (1:02)

Yeah.

Charlie (1:03)

I mean, to cramp your life into a...

Nix Adams (1:06)

Yeah.

Charlie (1:07)

You can write books on books on books. What parts of your life did you have to choose to put into this book?

Nix Adams (1:15)

I just put the whole thing.

Charlie (1:17)

Damn.

Nix Adams (1:18)

Yeah, man. The whole thing, because it starts from, you know, when I was younger, you know, the intergenerational trauma between me and my mum.

And, you know, I sat down with her before I even wrote the book, just to see how she would feel about us being that catalyst for people to understand what that even looks like. Because I didn't even know about intergenerational trauma until I was like in my 30s.

Charlie (1:50)

Wow.

Nix Adams (1:51)

And so I spent 30 years kind of wondering why are we like this? Why can't I have a connection with my mum like my mates do?

Why do I feel like she doesn't love me? What the hell have I done? You know, what can I do to change it? Why do I feel worthless? And I never understood it until we sat down in our 30s, and she said to me, I went through the same thing when I was a little girl, and my mum went through the same thing when she was a little girl.

Azura (2:19)

It's so sad, eh?

Nix Adams (2:20)

Yeah, and then it was like, damn, I didn't even have a choice. This just got passed down from generation to generation. When it got to me, I was like, the buck stops here.

SPEAKER_1 (2:32)

It stops here.

Nix Adams (2:33)

There's no way I'm gonna put that on my two little girls.

SPEAKER_1 (2:37)

I love that.

Nix Adams (2:37)

And I did that, and me and my mum were the closest we've ever been.

Azura (2:41)

Yeah, that's what I was gonna say, is that you and your mum have such an awesome relationship now, and I think that that's the whole damn point of this book, is it truly is a story from rock bottom to where you are now. And the thing is, is success can look so different to so many people. And I reckon, for you, yeah, the social media is the social media, but having your family and living with your family. Oh, absolutely.

Nix Adams (3:04)

Like being tight with my mum, we got, we lost 30 years. So now we're making up for it. Come on, mum, let's go to Turkey. You can come wipe my ass after my surgery.

You know, but stuff like that, travelling together, just, I just moved up north to be closer so that we can strengthen our connection. I have my children, I have my partner, we, you know, like that's success to me. After everything I've been through, yeah, cool. You know, people know who I am, stuff like that, but that's my success. Was it hard? Just having my family.

Azura (3:41)

Like, having to relive some of those moments for you? Because there's like, you know, I've only briefly like looked through it now, we got given the book this morning, and you can recall some of these things that happen in detail. Now, you know, when someone is addicted in a user, I have someone very close to me that is the same.

It's, yeah, it's very, it's very crazy to me that you were able to actually remember so much detail.