Panama

**May-May** (0:00)
Do you want to talk about Petal? You haven't yet.

**Zee** (0:03)
Um, yeah, I haven't. Um, I don't really know how to talk about it, because it's like, it's one of those things where, like, the experience was so amazing, and I'm the type of person where, like, if I don't, if everything doesn't come out the way that I wanted to in my head and the way that I've experienced it in my heart, then I'm just like, ah, you don't understand.

**May-May** (0:23)
Well, I know a story you could tell.

**Zee** (0:24)
That's just, like, the reality of accepting. Because a lot of things happened in Panama.

**May-May** (0:30)
I know a story you could tell.

**Zee** (0:31)
Well, a lot of things happened.

**May-May** (0:33)
Yeah, including you being lost.

**Zee** (0:35)
Um, exactly. Listen here, folks. Listen here, folks. Caution, caution. When you go into a foreign country, all right, and you're by yourself, all right, and you want to go on an adventure, all right, one that literally leads you through near a jail, all right? Don't, you know what? At some point, you just got to stop. So yeah, literally, I found this one hype, and instead it was like a 30-minute walk, so I was like, okay, 30-minute walk, that's actually not so far. And I don't know, whenever I'm in foreign countries, I love walking more.

**May-May** (1:12)
You do. You like being active, because you can more like simulate it to the local.

**Zee** (1:16)
Yes, exactly.
But so yeah, so yeah, it was this one hike called I'm Gone. It said it was 30 minutes. I was like, okay, perfect, I'll go on this. So I started walking, and then I just like, and then I kept walking, and then I was walking through these sketchy-ass neighborhoods. Like, I mean, like, clearly, like, I look like a foreigner. And so, you know, in the map sings when like, like it like directs you, but like I didn't want to like look at my phone, because like I didn't want to be like a foreigner. And I thought I blended in with the people. Obviously, like, I still got the looks. But um, but I kept walking and kept walking. And then each time I like kept checking my phone, it literally added more time to like the, it literally added more time because I was not making the right turns and stuff. But that's because I was not looking at my phone, because I didn't want anything to happen. And so yo, I walked over like 40,000 steps that day, and I ended up, oh my gosh. And so then, so I started getting close to the mountains, and I was like, oh my gosh, like, okay, like, Map says it's only 15 minutes more, 15 minutes more. And then I keep going, I keep going. And then all of a sudden, like, it starts to be like hidden, but like, like, there's like a gate. And so I'm like, okay, like, I'll pass the scale. Like, it's totally fine. It's not an issue. Like Google Maps says I'm going the right way. No, nigga, I keep going. And I'm like, shit, what, where the fuck am I actually? And then I start walking up to this one thing. And then that's when the guy that like the security guard that was standing outside, he was like, he was like saying in Spanish, like, hey, like, where are you going? Like, what are you doing? And I showed my phone and I was like, I'm trying to go to this hike. And he was like, girl, like, um, no, you came the wrong way. And he was like, do this, go this, go this, go this. And I was like, that, like, whatever, Google Maps is wrong. I'll just, I'll go the other way.

**May-May** (3:09)
It's the math's fault.

**Zee** (3:13)
And so then I kept going. And then it started like, like, you could hear that it was going to start to rain. So then it started to, like, rain and it was getting darker. And I like kept asking, like, um, like I ran into this other guy and I asked him, I was like, hey, like, how do I get to this? And he was like, ooh, like you could just hear in his voice. He was like, mm, yeah, no, like you should not be going here today or whatever. And so then I was like, you know what? I already made it this far. I'm a little chiuclid, so I'm gonna keep going, which I hate that about myself. And then, so then I kept going. And then it started pouring. And I was like, okay, like I, I just, ooh, like I, I'm starting to get this bad feeling that I should probably start heading back. And then I was like, okay, no, no, but like I'm gonna walk a little bit because I see this one guy like running. So I'm like, I'm gonna, bro, I'm literally so dumb. Like you do not, like, I'm gonna give my mom a heart attack. Thank you. So then, yeah. And so then it like got to a point where it was like a dead end. I was like, okay, like I'm gonna walk back down. I'm gonna get an Uber and I'm gonna leave. And like literally it was so impossible to get an Uber, but like I ended up getting an Uber. I had to walk all the way back down. And she was just like literally lecturing me. She was like, what are you doing here by yourself? Like you're, this is not like a safe neighbor. Like this is not a safe place. Like this is where the jail cell is and then I was like, I'm so sorry. I was just trying to go on a hike. I was trying to go on a adventure. She was like, girl, that's fucking good. She literally said that though in Spanish. It was so cute. But so yeah, so then I went to my fucking hostel. You would think that's how my day would end, right? I got to my hostel and I look at my phone because you know all my messages are finally coming again. And then it says like a purchase has been made on your credit card and it was like a huge purchase. I was like, hmm, I'm definitely that person that has notifications for every single purchase that I made. And you know, this one does not sound familiar. And so then, yeah, so then I ended up having to call my credit card because someone was hacking into it. Literally, like I am just like this night can't get any worse. But no, it ends so perfectly because I was like, you know what? Through all of this, like I'm going to take myself to the bar and I'm going to sit and I am just going to like shit. At least I could do is just enjoy for myself. So then I did and it was probably the like, okay. Honestly, so Panama has taught me that like, yeah, women should be like, if you want to go get a drink, if you want to sit at a nice bar, go get a drink, do it. Like men do it all the time. Anywho, but like you gain likes, like I feel like I've gained so much confidence because I realized like, yeah, like I am that bitch and like, I'm not necessarily here for someone. I'm here for myself, but you know what?