How To Manifest Your Dream Life: Rewire Your Mind, Build Self-Worth, & Unlock Your Purpose Ft. Roxie Nafousi

**SPEAKER_1** (0:01)
Welcome to The Bossticks, starring Lauryn Bosstick and Michael Bosstick. Together, they are The Bossticks.

**Lauryn Bosstick** (0:15)
So the way that I discovered your content was your book popped up on my For You page, and it's Manifest. I don't know if it was your first book, but I saw it and I thought, who is this creative to use this color? Everyone was in their beige, neutral, everyone looks the same, white, sterile era.

**Michael Bosstick** (0:38)
You were in that era?

**Lauryn Bosstick** (0:40)
I did it for a bit and I'm not ever going back to that. I'm over that. It's not enough depth.

**Michael Bosstick** (0:45)
A little bland for me.

**Lauryn Bosstick** (0:46)
A little bland. It's a little hostile.

**Roxie Nafousi** (0:48)
I have to say, I'm obsessed with the browns and the earthy tones.

**Lauryn Bosstick** (0:50)
Yeah, we got to bring it in.

**Roxie Nafousi** (0:51)
Yeah, I'm so here for it.

**Lauryn Bosstick** (0:52)
Yeah, so I see this book and I'm like, who is so creative in a world of beige to do orange?

**Roxie Nafousi** (1:00)
Thank you.

**Lauryn Bosstick** (1:01)
And I clicked something and it landed on your page and I was like, I have to have this girl on the show.
And this was years ago. I feel like it was two years ago. And I messaged you and now here you are two years later.

**Roxie Nafousi** (1:11)
I honestly can't believe it. I feel like I've been such a fan of both of you for so long. And when I first saw it, I think you posted about the book, you did a story or something or was in there and I was like, oh my god, I was so excited. And I feel like this has been a long time coming. So thank you.

**Lauryn Bosstick** (1:25)
We manifested it. We did.

**Michael Bosstick** (1:26)
Well, thank you for making the trip all the way.

**Roxie Nafousi** (1:28)
No, thank you so much. All the way from London. It's so nice to be here in Austin.

**Lauryn Bosstick** (1:31)
Okay, so let's get the lay of the land here with you. Talk to us when you first had your first inkling of manifesting, like, and maybe it was like when you were five, go back way, way back.

**Roxie Nafousi** (1:44)
Okay, so my first sort of introduction to manifestation was back in May 2018 So I was 27, about to turn 28 So I was about to have my Saturn return for anyone that's interested in psychology and astrology.
And at this point in my life, I had been addicted to cocaine for a decade. So I had discovered drugs when I was 16, 17 And up until that point, I had been deeply, deeply unhappy. I had been suffering depression since I was a kid, but I didn't know that I was suffering from depression. People weren't talking about mental health then. But looking back, that's definitely what it was. And I came from a very sort of emotionally unstable home.
Well, we were privileged in many respects. You know, I went to a private school and I had a roof over my head and I had food on the table. But emotionally though, it was just a very unsafe place. And on top of that, I was an Iraqi growing up in Oxford and Islamophobia was huge. You know, everybody thought that all Muslims were terrorists and I was really horrifically bullied. And so I actually changed my name from Rowan to Roxie when I was 12, because I moved schools and I thought, well, you know what? If people think, if I introduce myself as Rowan, they know I'm different. So I'll just change my name. And I guess that's when I started to really reject myself.
And then I discovered drugs. And once I discovered drugs, I got this sense of confidence, right? You have a line of cocaine, suddenly you feel good. And I was like-

**Michael Bosstick** (3:23)
What age was this?

**Roxie Nafousi** (3:24)
So this was 16, I think I had my first line, 70, 18 By the time I'm 21, I'm in narcotics anonymous. So I knew I was sort of an addict very quickly, I would say. And I knew I had a problem at 21, but I didn't give up till I was 28 So for those years that you have a problem, you know you have a problem, but you're not able to get out of it, you're in this real shame cycle. You know, you tell yourself you're going to give up, you last a week. I think the longest I ever went in those 10 years was three weeks without drugs once, which felt like a huge achievement.